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[daturameloxia]

Hello, you've reached Wylan.

[A pause, and then a quiet,] What else do I say? Oh.

Please leave a message and, um, I will be with you as soon as I can. Thank you!

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Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

I don’t see a problem, then.

[However the flippant tone has yet to leave his voice.]

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

[Hm.]

[Knocking on his lab door.]

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan comes to the door with goggles tangled in his hair.]

…Wash?

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

I got cocoa and snacks. You probably need a food break anyway, right?

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan’s stomach growls on cue. He untangles his goggles and retreats to set them on the work table before returning to the door. He closes it behind him and works up a smile.]

It might be.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

Sometimes my timing is just great.

[Looks amused and relieved. Always a good day when he doesn't fight.]

Come on, let's sit. And you can tell me what's on your mind?

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

I already said I’m fine with you dating. [Wylan sits at their table, frowning.]

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

You seemed flippant, so I was curious. I want to understand how your mind works.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan traces the lines on the table.]

I shouldn’t compare you to my father.

[It’s a familiar mantra during therapy.]

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

[He nods.] True.

Was that you trying to use humor instead to like...create distance?

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan frowns deeper.] I know you aren’t my father.

[There is a silent ‘but.’]

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

But?

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan sighs.] I want you to be happy above all else.

[Still not answering the but.]

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

And I appreciate it. I'm glad to hear it.

I just don't want you to stew with something.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

You’re not going to get a new son, are you?

[And there it is.]

A better son?

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

No.

[A pause.]

Not really? To the new son thing.

A better son thing isn't on the table and will never be on the table.

But I don't think even if we got to the point of some kind of marriage, it won't work that way?

[A pause.]

Macaque and I are in a dating stage thing, so you can already see how the familial lines question gets weird.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan considers for a moment before nodding.]

Macaque seems nice. He cares a lot about Korone.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

He is.

[He smiles fondly.] He's...good for me. It helps having him around.

But he also sees Choco as a daughter, and I really can't see her as one, she's my sister, and I'm pretty sure Donnie would not approve of a change in relationship just because I'm getting together with Mac.

So I don't think you're getting any siblings out of that, you'll have to adopt them as siblings on your own if you want them.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan smiles softly and his shoulders relax.]

I’m alright with no siblings.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

[He nods.] So there you go.

[A pause.]

And, if it helps, I wouldn't seek out having a young child.

I don't think I could be what a young one needs. If I'm having a bad time, where I know I'm not good to be around, I can tell you I need space and time and you have the ability to understand that it isn't about you, its because I'm a pretty fucked up person whose been through a lot of shit and I don't want that fallout to hit you.

I can't do that with a young child. I can't ask for space and if I slip up, it would be a lot harder to get them to understand.

I could watch a little kid for a few hours. I can't be their parent. They would deserve more than I could be.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan can’t recognize the unfamiliar feeling coursing through him as he listens to Wash speak. Is it pride? Is it relief?

Wylan stops tracing the lines on the table and carefully reaches out for Wash’s shoulder.]

I don’t think you’re fucked up. Not too fucked up to be my dad.

But I do hope the bad times are fewer.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

[He moves his hand over Wylan's, squeezing gently.]

To be fair, I would have to work to be worse than the bastard.

I'm fucked up as a person. That's just an objective fact. But I've been working to be better, and I've learned how to keep it from hitting the people who don't deserve it when I'm hitting a low point. Like you. And Choco. Most kids.

You're old enough and smart enough that I was willing to take the risk for you. At the very least, I wasn't going to make you worse, and you should get something better, even if its not as much as you deserve.

The bad times are fewer. Still there, but far fewer.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan nods along, pausing at moments, especially when the word “deserve” comes into play. But there’s something that does bring a small smile to Wylan’s face.]

I’m glad the bad times are fewer and I hope dating brings more good moments.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

Its been nice so far.

Admittedly, its been...almost two decades since I had anything like a romantic relationship. But Mac has been a real gentleman about my pace.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan’s smile blossoms on his face.] That’s really good. All I could ever ask.