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[daturameloxia]

Hello, you've reached Wylan.

[A pause, and then a quiet,] What else do I say? Oh.

Please leave a message and, um, I will be with you as soon as I can. Thank you!

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[daturameloxia]

[Wylan sighs.] I want you to be happy above all else.

[Still not answering the but.]

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

And I appreciate it. I'm glad to hear it.

I just don't want you to stew with something.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

You’re not going to get a new son, are you?

[And there it is.]

A better son?

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

No.

[A pause.]

Not really? To the new son thing.

A better son thing isn't on the table and will never be on the table.

But I don't think even if we got to the point of some kind of marriage, it won't work that way?

[A pause.]

Macaque and I are in a dating stage thing, so you can already see how the familial lines question gets weird.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan considers for a moment before nodding.]

Macaque seems nice. He cares a lot about Korone.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

He is.

[He smiles fondly.] He's...good for me. It helps having him around.

But he also sees Choco as a daughter, and I really can't see her as one, she's my sister, and I'm pretty sure Donnie would not approve of a change in relationship just because I'm getting together with Mac.

So I don't think you're getting any siblings out of that, you'll have to adopt them as siblings on your own if you want them.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan smiles softly and his shoulders relax.]

I’m alright with no siblings.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

[He nods.] So there you go.

[A pause.]

And, if it helps, I wouldn't seek out having a young child.

I don't think I could be what a young one needs. If I'm having a bad time, where I know I'm not good to be around, I can tell you I need space and time and you have the ability to understand that it isn't about you, its because I'm a pretty fucked up person whose been through a lot of shit and I don't want that fallout to hit you.

I can't do that with a young child. I can't ask for space and if I slip up, it would be a lot harder to get them to understand.

I could watch a little kid for a few hours. I can't be their parent. They would deserve more than I could be.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan can’t recognize the unfamiliar feeling coursing through him as he listens to Wash speak. Is it pride? Is it relief?

Wylan stops tracing the lines on the table and carefully reaches out for Wash’s shoulder.]

I don’t think you’re fucked up. Not too fucked up to be my dad.

But I do hope the bad times are fewer.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

[He moves his hand over Wylan's, squeezing gently.]

To be fair, I would have to work to be worse than the bastard.

I'm fucked up as a person. That's just an objective fact. But I've been working to be better, and I've learned how to keep it from hitting the people who don't deserve it when I'm hitting a low point. Like you. And Choco. Most kids.

You're old enough and smart enough that I was willing to take the risk for you. At the very least, I wasn't going to make you worse, and you should get something better, even if its not as much as you deserve.

The bad times are fewer. Still there, but far fewer.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan nods along, pausing at moments, especially when the word “deserve” comes into play. But there’s something that does bring a small smile to Wylan’s face.]

I’m glad the bad times are fewer and I hope dating brings more good moments.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

Its been nice so far.

Admittedly, its been...almost two decades since I had anything like a romantic relationship. But Mac has been a real gentleman about my pace.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan’s smile blossoms on his face.] That’s really good. All I could ever ask.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

Thanks.

And thanks for being honest with me.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Wylan pulls his hand back and nods.]

Thank you for listening, Dad.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[schrodingerscockroach]

Anytime.

And!

I know you're not fan of sweet, but I thought you might like this. Spicy, hot dark chocolate. Its still got some sweet or else it'd be bitter, but its not as strong and has spice mixed in.

Re: Voice/Action Eventually

[daturameloxia]

[Chocolate can be spicy? Wylan immediately perks up, eager curiosity written all over his face.]

I didn't know chocolate could be spicy.